Secrets of Sylvia

I've been really down lately. I think I may be having anxiety attacks. My chest starts hurting pretty bad, my head starts pounding, I get extremely nauseous and everything feels so overwhelming. I also get incredibly scared of anything making loud noises--the washing machine, the upstairs neighbors, loud music, etc. It scares the crap out of me.

I get so freaked out and it feels like my entire world is collapsing. It's usually at night, and I can't get anything done when I'm like that. I feel so nauseous that I just usually curl up into a ball and try wishing it all away. Of course, it doesn't go away.

My husband has been very good about it. He gets me into bed in a quiet room, then goes about taking care of the chores. He's really nice about that. He's definitely one of the best husbands anyone could ask for.

He's been having a rough time lately, as well. Some things have been happening--he had a death on his side of the family, which has made things so difficult for him. Then, one of his friends died, which has made it even more hectic on his nerves. It's been really hitting him hard.

He doesn't always open up about it, though. It wasn't until last night that he really began talking to me honestly about how all this has him feeling. I tried to comfort him the best I could, but I don't feel like I did a good job. I wish I was better at those things.

In the meantime, I think I may go to the doctor tomorrow. My husband offered to take me, as he speaks the language better than I do. We just want to make sure my chest pains aren't due to physical problems rather than stress. Once I get that confirmed, it'll just be one less thing to worry about.

And I need less things to worry about right now...