Secrets of Sylvia

I have been suffering from nausea and headaches. Also, my chest pains aren't going away. I'm pretty sure it's stress. I guess I just don't handle stress very well, and, well, living in a foreign country can be very stressful.

Sometimes I think of resigning from my job. I'm realizing that I should have never signed a two year contract. It seems to be too much for my mind and body. I'm not sure how I'm going to make it through until the end. I still have about nine more months to go.

It's not all complaints. I just tend to write when I feel I need to rant to someone who isn't going to judge me because the people I'm around all day are all about judgment and like to boast about how their not judgmental like other people. Yeah, it's a contradiction I live.

You all won't judge me, right?

Thank goodness it's Friday night. I love Friday nights. I get to just relax and not worry about work all night. I escape.

Seriously, I shut all the lights off in the apartment, take my computer into the bedroom and write. Many times, I even have a bottle of wine keep me company while I write.

And it just so happens that it's Writing month, so I've been trying to do more writing than just on Friday. I may even finish the story I'm working on by the end of the month.

That will feel good, especially if it turns out half way decent.

Wish me luck as I try to fight off this breakdown that is approaching and try making it through to the end of the contract...